Saturday, August 21, 2010 ♥
5:26:00 AM ♥
im tired..
im tired of being in fights..sick and tired of it..seriously..why cant there be a relationship that doesnt have any fights..misunderstanding..and crying..???im f*cking tired of all this..thats all i can say...
i thought that we could go thru things different than th other relationship that i had..bt i was wrong..im soo full of myself..i shouldnt have think that way..this relationship is nt th kind of relationship that i thought i or we could have..why must a relationship always have fights and misunderstandings..??i hate them..they are nt in my dictionary..
everytime i want to express my feelings to you..i will always be th one who end up saying sowie..its alwaes that..im sowie if i didnt went home with you..i told you at 2+ that im in sch watching my friends dance ryte..??its nt as if i told u i went home and go somewhere else with my friends..they were having a competiton..of course as a friend u will support them..kak rawr ckp u were looking for me..i msged u..bt u didnt reply me..what was that for..??klaw u mara atau binget kat i..u bole ckp pe..atleast i wont kp checking my hp..to see if u've replied me or nt..when i was going home at 4..i saw u at th gate..den u walked away..i thought that u didnt wear ur contact lense and you didnt saw me..ok fine..i tk kesa..bt than u NEVER reply my msg..at all..i kp checking my phone every 2 or 3 mins..ok fine..i tk kesa jugak..maybe u were busy..i didnt want to disterb u..den when ive reached home..i msg u..asking u whether ure ok or nt..if ure abgry with me..im sowie..n what did u reply..?? 'what..?im sick la..'i was like what..???ok nvrm..maybe u werent in th mood..
at 6+..i told you exactly what i felt abt you..in th end..im th one who felt guilty..and im th one who said sowie..its alwaes me isnt it..??im alwaes th one who is at fault..its alwaes me who creates problems..
i tried my best to understand you..bt i realised that i cant..and you told me i pentingkan my kwn2 dari i pentingkan you..??what was that suppose to mean..??and i cheat you..??wth...atleast i bother to msg u 1st..dari i tk msg u langsong kan..mane u prefer..??u told me that ure kwn sae i nvr layan u..i saba je tau..i didnt even know if u agree or disagree with them..im nt suprised if u agree with them though..when my friends say something bad abt you..i argued back..i didnt accept what they sae..i talked back to them..atleast when im with my friends i replied ur msgs..bt when ure with ur friends..sometimes it takes 1hr+ for u to reply me back..i tk mara tau..i tk mara..and ur promises..??ok i dont want to talk abt that..its just that..i dont undrstnd u that well..i try my best to undrstnd u..bt i cnt..i just cnt..i feel soo..f*cked up..sometimes i got to break down to breathe..
'you cn do wtv u want..frm monday onwards..u nd nt go to sch and go back home with me anymore..u cn be with ur friends..i dont want to care abt u anymore..u cn nsg other guys..i tknk kesa pasal u lagi..bt i want u to know that i still love u..dont msg me on saturday and sunday..i nd time..' if u still love me..u wuldnt have said all those things..i cried..so badly..do u know what i felt at that moment..??no ryte..??u dont..u tk tau mcm mane i rase mase tu..i was devastated..
sometimes its just that simple thing you do hurt my feelings..i nd a break frm all this..i really do..im just sick and tired of having fight..misunderstanding and crying..im just gonna do what in suppose to do..
this song decribes me what im feeling nw..
promise in th dark
Listen…
Can’t count on you most of all when I really need it
It’s the simple things that you do, really hurt my feelings
The more I try, the more I’m starting to see it
This can’t work anymore, than you believe it
Goodbye may come as a shock
Even though I love you a lot
I’ve given every breath I’ve got
Sometimes you gotta break down and breathe
And how many times I gave my heart
To how many times we fell apart
And it equals
A promise in the dark
So don’t promise me
And how many times I gave you me
Divided by so many memories
And it equals
A promise in the dark
So don’t promise me
Listen…
I just don’t know what the problem is,
what the deal is
Was I there too much, did I move too fast,
I couldn’t see it?
All these promises are probably how you deal with it
I’m tired of hearing you say your innocent
Don’t think I forgot
Because I really didn’t care if you’re lying a lot
I’ve given every breath I’ve got
Sometimes you gotta break down and breathe
And how many times I gave my heart
To how many times we fell apart
And it equals A promise in the dark
So don’t promise me
And how many times I gave you me
Divided by so many memories
And it equals A promise in the dark
So don’t promise me
We all make mistakes
Sometimes we do desperate things
What does it prove?
NOTHING
And you never do nothing wrong
Then what took you so long, took you so long
Cuz I keep, keep hanging on, keep, keep hanging on
And how many times I gave my heart
To how many times we fell apart
And it equals
A promise in the dark
So don’t promise me
And how many times I gave you me
Divided by so many memories
And it equals
A promise in the dark
So don’t promise me
So don’t promise me
So don’t promise meLabels: im tired of all this
