mz riyanita

2010-11-07T18:09:00.000+08:00

nt using blogger anymore..am using tumblr..:)anything..link thru my tumblr..:)

i want to tell u this

2010-10-22T19:51:00.004+08:00

listen..for th past 3mths+ we've bn together..we've been thru alot of ups..and mostly downs..i know..that i love u..alot..and i mean it..u told me too that u love me alot..bt..i just want to ask u..why do u keep doing things that hurt me..??1st..was th..one that we fought..and..u said 'i love you' to a gerl..it was my fault too..thats why i didnt take it too seriously..bt..th one i really rmbr was th one u drank..and u kissed and hugged a gerl..that..was th one which hurts me alot..hw culd u..

and just nw..i called u..arnd 4+..u said u were working..and u end work at 6..bt when i wanted to go home just nw..my friend said that she saw u..at blk 2..and that tym was arnd 6.20+..i didnt believed her..coz i didnt want to be hurt..bt..when i looked there..i saw u..i msg ur friend at 6.38pm..asking where was hym..up till nw..no reply..i didnt want to think negative of u..bt..th more i didnt want to think of it..th more i felt th sadness..tears kp dropping u know..

its like..everynight..i cry for u..i was helples..do you know that..??i didnt know what to do..i needed someone..luckily kak rawr was there for me..she consoled me..and have u read my tagbox..?ur friend said that abt u..do u know i felt..?i didnt know if i shud trust hys words..or ignore them..im hurt..ok..everytime u did something u shudnt do..im hurt..i dont know if u understand my feelings..bt..i just want u to know that ok..i culd tell u all this to u in person bcoz i didnt know hw to sae it to u..im sowie if ive hurt u bt..this is what i really really feel abt u..abt us..

someone said this to me..'u pity hym..bt..th question is..does he pity u..?think abt it'.. those words..really had my mind thinking..i try to ignore it bt..i culdnt..

gd morning..!!

2010-10-22T10:42:00.002+08:00

boo pple..!!i cant wait for later at 3pm..:)gonna meet dinah shahidah and sabrina at lot to buy something for yayah and off we go to kak feeqa hse to celebrate..!!wwee~~..!!!cnfrm gerek nye..ade kak rawr..ade kak feeqa..haha..!!up til nw i still dont know what to wear..haiya..mcm smue da pakai gitu kan..hee..:)

bby..i miss you soo much tau..da 15daes = 2wks 1dae kite tk jumpe tau..i rindu u sgt2..niari u keje..da la prepaid low kite tk bole msg..haiyoo..susa tau bby..klaw i msg i pon..u k bole reply..peg la top up prepaid u ok syg..up till nw im still waiting for ur call tau syg..pls call me..i miss ur voice la..pls3..ok la..bby take care ok syg..syg bby..!!

go away pls..

2010-10-15T12:27:00.002+08:00

im down with fever runny nose and cough..damn it..!!went to th poly ystrdy with mama..was actually going with bby bt mama said ahe wants to go with me..spoil plan..!!anw..get down th bus..saw amos kenneth and eugene..they were like 'wah yanite..!!nvr go sch..??wah..!!gd uh..' and mama was like opposite them looking..haha..den went to poly bla3..spent 45mins waiting for my number to be called..when my number was called..went into th rm..sit..answer dctr question..den go out..wtf..!!45mins of waiting...less than 5 mins see th dctr..luckily bby accompany me by msging..den went home..den ystrdy i dont know hw many times bby say 'take care tau bie'.. haha..i will ok syg..u pon nk kene take care tau..u pon saket..den th whole day i was either on my bed lying down or on th sofa sitting..haiz..nw still at home..am gonna cntinue my rest till i get well..

bby..da 9 hari kite tk jumpe..:( i miss u sgt2 tau syg..:(im soo gonna hug u tightly on monday when we go to sch together..rindu sgt2 tau..

im disappointed in you..

2010-10-13T18:01:00.003+08:00

nw then u tell me..??after 3mths and 8 daes we've been together..nw then u tell me..??when i say or talk abt my ex or guy friends..u were jealous of them..and nw..when u hug and kiss other gerls..in ur drunk state..did u think of me..??and i didnt even think that u drink ok..nvr has that cross my mind before..i thot u were like th naughty2 type of guy which only smokes and lepak..bt i was wrong..and notice something..?? when i say something to u..that hurts u..u alwaes say 'i text u back..i nd tym on my own..' bt when u said th actions that u made..i didnt say that i nd tym on my own or wtv ok..u know why..??bcoz i didnt want u to be stressed out..bcoz i know u have ur own problems and i dont want you to think abt th incident..get it nw..??and this is what i get frm u after being nice to u..??bt wtv it is..i will cntinue to have patience towards u..and pls stop it..

im disappointed in you..

2010-10-13T18:01:00.000+08:00

bby i miss u..:(

2010-10-12T19:26:00.002+08:00

bby i miss u alot la..bile bole jumpe..??bile nk jumpe mesti ade bende terjadi..tad klaw tk kite bole jumpe..tap u got something on..:( soo tk jadi jumpe..:( boohoo..!! :'( today u start ur new work..kat sentosa..frm 5pm-2am..den bsk u tk skola..:( kecian tau i tgk u bby..nanti kecian u penat..u tu saket..dont forget to have a rest ok syg..??u take care when ure working..tkmo over-work urself tau bie..and u kene ingat yg i syg syg syg u sgt sgt..!!

I want to go jalan2..!!

2010-10-10T18:49:00.002+08:00

Im soo fucking bored man..!!I want to go jalan2..da la on Saturday nye plan tk jadi..boring u know..!! I don't care..I still want to go out on Monday..tk kesa la ngan sape..asal kan klua ngan jalan2 I happy oredie..:) I want to go out with my kawan or bby or family..eee.....!!!!!!and I want to enjoy..if cn go out la..hee..:D ok la..ok gtg..chaoz..!!

woo...!!!!

2010-10-08T20:18:00.002+08:00

yea..!!exam da finish..!!bbooiikk uuhh..!!!just got home frm IMM..papa rent car den go jln2..bought a new shirt..or dress..i dont know..bt i LOVE it..!!anw..later fetching my sister at pasir ris..at 1030 like that..den we go jln2 again..woo..!!den maybe tmr going scape tgk qyff skate..die ade competition..mama gave me th permission to go out..!!bcoz she's going to johor..den i will be alone at home..soo..die kac peg..!!nyiaha..!!die da kac pegi..ape lagi..pegi la..!!hehe..:) and im gonna wear th new baju/dress tmr..!!woohoo..!!actually syazzy yg ajak me..tap she hvnt tell me what tym nk jumpe..den i asked helmy..die ckp die peg tap tk tau what tym jumpe jugak..haiyoo..i oso ask bby..tap die tk tau die peg ke tk..coz he got plans for tmr..soo..tgk dulu la..i cant wait for tmr man..!!im soo gonna enjoy myself tmr..!!wwweeee~~...!!!!

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2010-10-07T16:59:00.002+08:00

i need u now..im nt in th mood..i want you to cheer me up..bt you said that ure prepaid was low..i didnt want you to waste ur prepaid..bt im really really really moody now..i need u nw syg..:(

love bruno mars..!!

2010-10-04T19:30:00.001+08:00

love this song..

talking to th moon-bruno mars

I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away
I want you back
I want you back
My neighbors think
I'm crazy
But they don't understand
You're all I have
You're all I have

Chorus:

At night when the stars
light up my room
I sit by myself

Talking to the Moon
Try to get to You
In hopes you're on
the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool
who sits alone
Talking to the moon

I'm feeling like I'm famous
The talk of the town
They say
I've gone mad
Yeah
I've gone mad
But they don't know
what I know

Cause when the
sun goes down
someone's talking back
Yeah
They're talking back

Chorus:

At night when the stars
light up my room
I sit by myself
Talking to the Moon
Try to get to You
In hopes you're on
the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool
who sits alone
Talking to the moon

Do you ever hear me calling?
Cause every night
I'm talking to the moon
Still trying to get to you

In hopes you're on
the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool
who sits alone
Talking to the moon

I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away

2010-10-04T16:27:00.003+08:00

Im updating for you dear .
Coz i realie miss you .
I want to sae this to you .
That i realie love you and im sorry if i hurt you all this while .
I knew im not a goood guy , but im thankful to God that you have always
been at my side .
I knw you have always felt so sad when we fought , im sorry tough .
I want to wish us a happy advance 3rd monthsary . I love you .
Bby , i've been wanting to tell you this .
First when i laid my eyes at you , i knew you are the one for me .
And i knew i want you to be mine .
You cheered me up oftenly , the love that we brought up together grew stronger .
Nobody could come in between us , because i dont want to lose you .
And i always wanted our love to shine .
My love for you doesnt even run out .
Girl , you fill every seconds to me with your love .
When i cried , you cry with me .
When you laughed , so do you .
My love with you will stay forever , and will never go away .
Ariyanita , if tears run down my cheeks , it means i would be afraid to cry ,
because i fear of losing you .
Dreaming of you yesterday after i cried , i really miss you so much .
I know how mch i love you , you may not knw . Only God knws . How much i love you , i beleive in Him . I love you . I trust you . I beleive in you . Truly , so deeply , soso madly . There's no one else . Only you . Only you , Ariyanita . All i want to say , i love you . Dear Allah , i knw that you brought us together . Give her faifth in you , give her strengthness to face all this . And i hold this promise tight , i wont leave you sayang . Bby , once again , happy advanced third monthsary to you . I love you so dearly , honey . I love you so much . You have been wanting to knw why i love you , and i did this sincerely from my heart sayang . I love you .

we are still together ryte..

2010-10-01T19:18:00.002+08:00

u say that we are nt what we use to be..we are nt as close and sweet as we use to be..i agree..bt that doesnt mean we need to be like that ryte..??alot of things happened..whenever we msg each other..its either you're busy or im busy..u alwaes say..'bie i text u back later..' i dont mind that coz i know u want some time on ur own since th incident abt ur kakak sedare happened..i dont know hw u felt like thats why i gave u th tym that u need..den..when u msg me..im busy..with my hmwk or revision or something else..i didnt mean to do that to u..i didnt mean to hurt u by my actions..look..i try to msg u like hw i msged u last tym..th wae i msg u its just th same..maybe for some reasons th wae i type to is different bcoz there's some personal stuff..and u cant blame me for that..u kene paham pompan..die kdg2 ade mood kdg2 tkde mood..i try to be happy ok..
den u..alwaes say u nd tym on ur own..or later u text me back coz ure busy..i didnt even like..complain or something..even if u msg me 1 or 2 hrs later..i didnt mind ok..den when u msg me..baru brape minutes u msged me again..'u busy..??tkpe la tknk kacau..bye..' its nt fair for me ok..
i dont want to quarrel with u ok..im tired..pls dont be like this..that all i want to say to u..i hope ure nt angry at me bcoz of this..this is hw i get al my feelings out..

2010-09-28T20:28:00.002+08:00

Helo pple..!!I'm sowie my blog has been dead for like..I don't know hw many days..due to my sister nt paying her bills..and that effect th Internet connection..haiz..nw I'm using my mum's iPhone..:) anw..I want to say thk u to Muhd Ridzuan for helping me updating my blog for me..:) thk u dar-dar..!! Syg dar-dar..!! Anw..will mt be updating my blog until my Internet is alive again ok pple.. Gtg nw..:) syg korg2 smue..!! Hee..:)
dar-dar tkmo sad2 ok.. I kan ade utk u.. Jgn worry bt ur kakak..I'm sure she's gonna ok..alrite bby..? Kite doakan die same2 supaye die cpt sembuh..:) u kene ingat tau yg I'm alwaes here for u ok dar-dar..love u syg..!! Muaks..!!

2010-09-21T23:19:00.001+08:00

Hello . Updating blog for Ariyanita Bte Jeffrey . Muhammad Ridzuan here , updating for her . Her internet gave problems . -.- . Kay , jst keeping her blog alive . Cepat2 ler repair . Anw to you sayang , i miss you so much . Okay lah , gtg nw . I miss u Ariyanita , - Kekasihmu .

love hari raya..!!

2010-09-14T18:09:00.002+08:00

just a short post for today..coz im lazy..muahaha..!!anw..hari raya just passed..and so far ive collected $157..i wish i could get more..!!!hee..:) den..i want to buy NIKON D3000..!!woo..!!cnfrm cantik nye..!!i want to safe and safe and safe and than...BUY..!!woohhoo..!!!cnt wait mayne.!!!hee...!!
ouh ya..tmr going to UNIVERSAL STUDIOS..!!as a thk you frm th YOG thing..they gave us tickets..:) am soooooooo gonna enjoy it tmr..!!woo..!!!nk amek gamba bnyk2 sgt2..!!hee..:)k la..gtg..bbye..!!!

i miss you soo much..!!pls come back soon..!!

2010-09-08T12:16:00.003+08:00

see that guy there..??thats Farhan Bin Yazid..!!i really really really miss him alot..!!!when are you coming back..??all of us here miss you alot do you know that..??this year we wont be celebrating hari raya together..:(..cnfrm tk gerek nye..:(..anw i dream of you do you know that..??!!want to know hw it goes..here it is..

i dont know where i was..bt i know iwas with syak..yayah and syazzy..and than i think i was still with you in my dream..den th 3 of us were walking at an alley [ i dont know why] and suddenly u appeared..!!and th 3 of us hugged u tightly..!!and3..i hug u and u hug me..haha..!!aww..cute..!!and u gave me something..bt i dont know what it was..coz i missed you soo much that i cntinued hugging you..!!haha..

pls pls pls come back soon..!!we will be waiting for you here..when you come back..we go out ramai2 ok..?hee..:)

want those..!!

2010-09-06T21:04:00.004+08:00

see those hot stuffs up there..??im soo gonna own them one of these daes..i wanna own a blue vespa..with a cute lil basket behind it..aww..cnfrm cute kan..??woo..!!cant wait to reach 18..den i take my liscence and buy my dream vespa..woo..!!booiikk uuhh..!!21 april 2013..cn u arrive soon..??hee..:)thk u..^^..

its today..!!

2010-09-05T11:45:00.005+08:00

it th 5th september..!!happy 2nd mthsary bby..!!!its soo fast ryte..?although we have been thru alot of arguements..fights..misundrstndings..and alot more things..i still love u..!! for th past 2mths..i learnt a few things frm u..eventhough we are nt th same..as in our mindset are different..im trying my best to get to know u better..and im trying my best to undrstnd u..and i know im nt th same as ur use-to-be-girlfriends coz i cant go out with u as often as u go out with them..bt i will try to be a gd girlfriend to u..im sowie if i make u cry or angry sometimes..and im sowie if im selenge or blur..im lyk that and i hope u dont mind that..:) i just want u to do two things for me..number one..pls smile..like this..--> :D..two..manage ur anger ok..anw..pls go see th dctr..ure sick and im worried abt u..hear my advice and see th dctr..ur sickness is serious tau..pls pls pls go see th dctr..thk u very much..and dont u ever think that ure bad ok..ure just...naughty..and i love u for th way you are..:) ok la..gtg..love ridzuan alot..!!*bighugs*

i want to be in a fairytale story..

2010-09-03T20:02:00.003+08:00

why cant we lived in a fairytale story..??why cant we lived happily..??why must there be misunderstandings btwn each other..?whY IS there fights and conflicts and misunderstandings..?

i know im th cause of all this..im sowie..i want to apologise to Umar and Zack..and the others who were involved..im sowie that all this happens..if it werent for me..smue ni tkan terjadi..i realised that my mistake has get everybody yg tk bersala suddenly jadi involve..Kak Miza im sowie..i didnt know hw this is related to u bt..i just want to apologise to u..Kak Rawr..thk u for th hug just nw..i really need that hug to comfort me..Feeza Ain Raifana Syak-Bestie Rayyan Syazzy Fie Naddy Ayunnie Dinah Shahidah Amos Nicholas Kenneth Ri Xuan and th others..i want to say thk u for being there..all of u were a great help for me..u make me smile..i cant say anything else bt thk u soo much..Faiq..pls tkmo uat problem lagi..Zack ngan Ridzuan ckp da settle..pls dont hurt Umar..i beg u pls..he did nothing wrong..i was th one who started all this..dont hurt hym pls..

Bby..im sowie that all this happened because of me..im sowie if i didnt spend time with u and talk to u and layan u like i alwaes do..frm nw on i will do all that with u ok..i hope u like th pefume i gave u..thks to papa because die yg chose that smell..:)and thk u for th sunflower..:)and th letter..its sweet..!!i promise i wont cause any problems to u anymore..i dont want this to happen again..anw..HAPPY ADVANCE 2NDMTHSARIE BBY..!!although kite bnyk gado..quarrel..and ade misundrstndings..i tetap sygkan u..i hrp kite lastlong..:)syg bby..!!*bighugs*

cute song..

2010-09-01T14:24:00.002+08:00

if a were a boy..i would sing this song for her..its soo cute..hw i wish someone could sing me this cute song..

Just The Way You Are - Bruno Mars

[Verse 1]
Her eyes, her eyes
make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair
falls perfectly without her trying
She's so beautiful
And I tell her everyday (yeahh)

I know, I know
When I compliment her she won't believe me
And it's so, it's so
Sad to think that she don't see what I see
But everytime she asks me "Do I look okay?"
I say

[Chorus]
When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
'Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile
The whole world stops and stares for a while
'Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

[Verse 2]
Her lips, her lips
I could kiss them all day if she let me
Her laugh, her laugh
she hates but I think it's so sexy
She's so beautiful
And I tell her everyday

Oh you know, you know, you know
I'd never ask you to change
If perfects what you're searching for
Then just stay the same
So don't even bother asking if you look okay
'Cause you know I'll say

[Chorus]
When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
'Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile
The whole world stops and stares for a while
'Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are
The way you are
The way you are

Repeat Chorus

tired..!!

2010-08-31T16:50:00.002+08:00

currently tired..-_-"..haiya..due to th teachers day thing..eventhough i didnt contribute much..:D anw..todae was AWESOME TO TH MAX..!! todae was th teachers day celebration..i didnt sit on th gallery coz i was suppose to 'decorate' th hall and run errands or something..bt i dont care..i want to watch th consert man..!!i didnt do what th other star leader did..i went to follow sya instead..muahaha..ee..jahat kan..??neyni neyni pupu..:P.. anw..D-FORMATION WAS AWESOME..!!!LOVE D-FORMATION..!! before that was F.A.Z..i think..they were SUPER CUTE..!!especially aidil..??th one who rap..did pinch hys cheeks 2 times..hee..cute little boy..!!anw..th celebration went on..saw teck yi..OMG..!!SUPER CUTE..:)..i said helo to hym and he said helo back..hee..cute giler..!!mcm nk kene bite..!!hehe..ariyanita stop eh..da ade mataer kan..hehe..:) half way thru th celebration saw bby..i think i startled him coz i tego hym frm th back..sowie bby..den i ckp2 with bby..den i like th way he cn chnge hys expression..haha..soo..style..haha..wtv eh yanita..anw..didnt talked to hym much..sowie syg..after th celebration and briefing..cpt2 amek bag den balek..haha..den meet d-formation..went to teck whye market..bought cntact lense..smgt utk raye la katekan..haha..den went home..
nw bby is sick..kecian die..bby mkn obat ok..den rest..tkmo merayap2..dudok kat ruma..tdo..den jgn lupe utk msg i..take care ok syg..??syg bby..!!*muaks..!!*

am i at fault..??

2010-08-28T10:46:00.002+08:00

u say i nvr layan u..??what th star man..!!who nvr layan who nw..??i look at u..u nvr look at me..we were in th same toilet..u nvr talk to me..we walked pass by each other..u nvr smile at me..i msged u..u nvr reply back..tell me nw who nvr layan who..??i asked feeza..yayah..rai..kak rawr..and ridzuan..ridzuan ask you why you were like that and u told hym i nvr layan u..??really..??
what th star made u think i nvr layan u..??i talk to u like i alwaes do..i do everything like we do..and nw u sae i nvr layan u..?? ive msged u 2 msg tau..2 msg..nt a single reply frm u..i dont want to force u..bt i just want us to be like what we use to be..thats all..

wwwweee~~~...!!!!

2010-08-23T20:00:00.003+08:00

boo peepos..!!!just mkn..woo..sedap..yummy..!!hee..ok im craving for CHOCOLATE CHOCOLATE CHIP COOKIE AND FAMOUS AMOS CHOCOLATE CHIP WITH PECAN COOKIE AND CHEESMELTZ..!!! OUH MY GOD..!!YUMMY TO TH MAX MAN..!! nvrm..im soo gonna buy them buy end of this mth..muahaha..!!*evil smile*

anw..bby and me da ok..:)even though kite gado2..kite still syg each other..kan bie kan..??hee..:D..syg ridzuan..anw..i miss hugging him..:( bulan puase tk bole hug2..nant dose..haiz..tkpe2..nant bile da finish puase..bile raye da finish..kite hug kuat2 ok syg..??cnt wait for that dae..!!anw..bby..kite lag 13 daes to our mthsarie..!!woo..!!bbooiikk uuhh..!!tk saba la..hee..:) ok la..gtg..nk tgk cite mohabatein..love that cite..!! bbye kwn2ku..:)

im tired..

2010-08-21T05:26:00.003+08:00

im tired of being in fights..sick and tired of it..seriously..why cant there be a relationship that doesnt have any fights..misunderstanding..and crying..???im f*cking tired of all this..thats all i can say...
i thought that we could go thru things different than th other relationship that i had..bt i was wrong..im soo full of myself..i shouldnt have think that way..this relationship is nt th kind of relationship that i thought i or we could have..why must a relationship always have fights and misunderstandings..??i hate them..they are nt in my dictionary..
everytime i want to express my feelings to you..i will always be th one who end up saying sowie..its alwaes that..im sowie if i didnt went home with you..i told you at 2+ that im in sch watching my friends dance ryte..??its nt as if i told u i went home and go somewhere else with my friends..they were having a competiton..of course as a friend u will support them..kak rawr ckp u were looking for me..i msged u..bt u didnt reply me..what was that for..??klaw u mara atau binget kat i..u bole ckp pe..atleast i wont kp checking my hp..to see if u've replied me or nt..when i was going home at 4..i saw u at th gate..den u walked away..i thought that u didnt wear ur contact lense and you didnt saw me..ok fine..i tk kesa..bt than u NEVER reply my msg..at all..i kp checking my phone every 2 or 3 mins..ok fine..i tk kesa jugak..maybe u were busy..i didnt want to disterb u..den when ive reached home..i msg u..asking u whether ure ok or nt..if ure abgry with me..im sowie..n what did u reply..?? 'what..?im sick la..'i was like what..???ok nvrm..maybe u werent in th mood..
at 6+..i told you exactly what i felt abt you..in th end..im th one who felt guilty..and im th one who said sowie..its alwaes me isnt it..??im alwaes th one who is at fault..its alwaes me who creates problems..
i tried my best to understand you..bt i realised that i cant..and you told me i pentingkan my kwn2 dari i pentingkan you..??what was that suppose to mean..??and i cheat you..??wth...atleast i bother to msg u 1st..dari i tk msg u langsong kan..mane u prefer..??u told me that ure kwn sae i nvr layan u..i saba je tau..i didnt even know if u agree or disagree with them..im nt suprised if u agree with them though..when my friends say something bad abt you..i argued back..i didnt accept what they sae..i talked back to them..atleast when im with my friends i replied ur msgs..bt when ure with ur friends..sometimes it takes 1hr+ for u to reply me back..i tk mara tau..i tk mara..and ur promises..??ok i dont want to talk abt that..its just that..i dont undrstnd u that well..i try my best to undrstnd u..bt i cnt..i just cnt..i feel soo..f*cked up..sometimes i got to break down to breathe..
'you cn do wtv u want..frm monday onwards..u nd nt go to sch and go back home with me anymore..u cn be with ur friends..i dont want to care abt u anymore..u cn nsg other guys..i tknk kesa pasal u lagi..bt i want u to know that i still love u..dont msg me on saturday and sunday..i nd time..' if u still love me..u wuldnt have said all those things..i cried..so badly..do u know what i felt at that moment..??no ryte..??u dont..u tk tau mcm mane i rase mase tu..i was devastated..
sometimes its just that simple thing you do hurt my feelings..i nd a break frm all this..i really do..im just sick and tired of having fight..misunderstanding and crying..im just gonna do what in suppose to do..

this song decribes me what im feeling nw..

promise in th dark

Listen…
Can’t count on you most of all when I really need it
It’s the simple things that you do, really hurt my feelings
The more I try, the more I’m starting to see it
This can’t work anymore, than you believe it

Goodbye may come as a shock
Even though I love you a lot
I’ve given every breath I’ve got
Sometimes you gotta break down and breathe

And how many times I gave my heart
To how many times we fell apart
And it equals
A promise in the dark
So don’t promise me
And how many times I gave you me
Divided by so many memories
And it equals
A promise in the dark
So don’t promise me

Listen…
I just don’t know what the problem is,
what the deal is
Was I there too much, did I move too fast,
I couldn’t see it?
All these promises are probably how you deal with it
I’m tired of hearing you say your innocent

Don’t think I forgot
Because I really didn’t care if you’re lying a lot
I’ve given every breath I’ve got
Sometimes you gotta break down and breathe
And how many times I gave my heart
To how many times we fell apart
And it equals A promise in the dark
So don’t promise me
And how many times I gave you me
Divided by so many memories
And it equals A promise in the dark
So don’t promise me

We all make mistakes
Sometimes we do desperate things
What does it prove?
NOTHING
And you never do nothing wrong

Then what took you so long, took you so long
Cuz I keep, keep hanging on, keep, keep hanging on

And how many times I gave my heart
To how many times we fell apart
And it equals
A promise in the dark
So don’t promise me
And how many times I gave you me
Divided by so many memories
And it equals
A promise in the dark

So don’t promise me
So don’t promise me
So don’t promise me

go away u fever thing..!!

2010-08-18T13:18:00.002+08:00

currently sick now..urgh..!!irritating la..feel soo weak..todae nvr go sch..its all due to ystrdy YOG weather..it was soo damn hot..!!and we were suppose to be in a small booth..with nothing bt 2 fans and lights..wtf ryte..?? and im fasting some more..terok to th max man..!!terpakse kene tahan..haiyoo..luckily ain rayyan dinah and mr ho ade wih me..klaw tkde..i donoe what will happen to me man..!!we reach NIE NTU at abt..8am..did something with th booth..'decorate' it..bla3..den talk to th athletes..den ryte got this afghanistan guy..hys like soo cute and tall and cute..haha..he came in th booth and look arnd..i went up to hym and ask hym what country he was..unfortunatelyy he didnt understand english..pity hym..bt i try talking to hym slowly and used some hand signs..den he wanted to paint th keychain..i observe hym painting th keychain..hys hands were lyke shivering..and hys face like takot2 lyk that..bt he very cute..:) when he was done painting th keychain..we decided to take a picture with hym..i stand beside hym..:) hee..:D he was soo tall and cute man..!!hee..i lyk..!! ok la..den th day went on..had some breaks..me dinah and ain were lyk looking out for cute athletes..haha..:) den we buke puase inside th booth..just a cake and coca cola..den at 730pm we went to th dining area and ate there..den bla3..went out of th NIE NTU..took mr ho's car at jurong point..he send us to lot one..met up with raifana..meet bby ans sholihin..he wear baju kurong coz he went to terawih..aww..cute kan...?? hee..:) took th bus and alight at th bustop rai usually alight..send rai home..walked home with bby and sholihin..den..i hug hym..and guess what..i have to tip toe in order foe me to hug hym..nt fair..!!hys getting taller and im nt growing..:( wtv la eh..and den hug hym..kiss hym on hys cheeks..:) den went home..and ate laksa..woo..!!sedap..!!hee..den only msg bby 1 tym..den went to sleep..best dpt tdo..woo..!!hee.:)

bby..sowie i tk gi skola ngan u niari..or went to school todae..i miss u la syg..haiz..tkpe..bsk bole jumpe..:)bby tkmo sad2 abt th thing yg u overheard abt ur parents' conversation ok..bende tu akan terjadi nx yr bkn skrg..skrg kite tkmo sad2..klaw bby sad..nant i pon sad..nant due2 sad nant tk best tau..promise me you wont think abt this anymore ok..just remember that i love you alot..you also must love me alot tau..tkmo love pompan laen..diorg tk bagos..i je yg bagos..hee..:)syg bby..!!

why..???

2010-08-11T18:04:00.002+08:00

why are you like this..??ive always try my best to make you happy..even when you only reply my msgs with one word..which i dont quite like it..bt i try to bear with it..its because i love you and i care for you..if i dont love you..i wont bother asking you th same question over and over again..

i dont know if this is th reason for you to be mad bt i just want to say im sorry for being too lose with th guy you dont like..its not that im being fussy bt..im nt mad at you for who you want to be friends with..even when you're with you outside friends..im nt mad..when you're with your girl friends also im nt mad at you..bt if its because of one chinese guy you dont like..and im close with him youre angry at..im sorry..bt i just think its not fair..bt i try to not to be close to him..for you..i will try..

and to you..why are you leaving me in th lurch on my own..??you know im weak in maths..you're th only one that n teach me maths and i undrstnd you..and you just tell me by msg ' im sorry i cant teach you maths anymore'..i was like..' wth..!!?? ' im just sad cos you do that to me..im nt blaming you..its just that..oh well..klaw i sae ape2 pon u wont accept kan..

its been a very bad day for me..two guys that are close to me just gave me a hard time..one just kind of abandon me at one corner with maths question which i dont know how to do..and one just gave me a hard time to cheer hym and myself up..n im trying my very best..

boo..!!

2010-08-09T10:11:00.002+08:00

just want to say..HAPPRY 45TH BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE..!!WOO..!!I LOVE MY COUNTRY MAN..!!SOO GEREK..!!hee..:) ok..thats soo terok..hehe..:) anw..btol la..happy birthday singapore..bkn maen2 kan..hrp2 singapore will be th most gerek nation in th world..!!woo.!!:D

maybe today i'll be going out with my cousin..bt dont know to where..:(..tap at least dpt klua kan..??woo..!!cnfrm niari smgt singapore..pakai baju merah putih..!!woo..!! im soo gonna wear my red shades..:) cnfrm balek lambat nye..i suke..!hee..

tmr meeting bby..!!nk blaja ngan die..!!woo..rindu sgt2 la ngan die..soo gonna hug hym tmr..!!den nk blaja btol2..wednesday da exam..leceh man..!!puase lagi..haiyoyo..anw..bsk nk blaja maths..geog..ngan chem..woo..bnyk tu..!!tkpe2..kite blaja same2 ok bby..:)den kite pakai baju same colour..:) hee..cnfrm cute..!!k la..wont say much here..one last thing..i love bby n i miss you alot...!!jumpe bsk..!!

i love this song..!!

2010-08-07T15:14:00.002+08:00

Dynamite-Taio Cruz
I-I-I-I-I-II came to dance-dance-dance-dance
I hit the floor cause that's my plans plans plans plans
I'm wearing all my favorite brands brands brands brands
Give me some space for both my hands hands hands hands.
Yeah, yeah.

Cause it goes on and on and on.
And it goes on and on and on.
Yeah.

I throw my hands up in the air sometimes
Saying ay-oh, gotta let go.
I wanna celebrate and live my life
Saying ay-oh, baby let's go.
Cause we gon rock this club
We gon' go all night
We gon' light it up
Like it's dynamite.
Cause I told you once
Now I told you twice
We gon light it up
Like it's dynamite.

I came to move move move move
Get out the way of me and my crew crew crew crew
I'm in the club so I'm gonna do do do do
Just what the fuck came here to do do do do
Yeah, yeah

Cause it goes on and on and on.
And it goes on and on and on.
Yeah.

I throw my hands up in the air sometimes
Saying ay-oh, gotta let go.
I wanna celebrate and live my life
Saying ay-oh, baby let's go.
Cause we gon rock this club
We gon' go all night
We gon' light it up
Like it's dynamite.
Cause I told you once
Now I told you twice
We gon light it up
Like it's dynamite.

I'm gonna take it all like
I'm gonna be the last one standing
I rove around like
I'm gonna be the last one landing.
Cause I-I-I believe it
And I-I-I, I just want it all, I just want it all.
I'm gonna put my hands in the air
Ha-hands in the air
Put your hands in the air-air-air-air-air-air-air-air

I throw my hands up in the air sometimes
Saying ay-oh, gotta let go.
I wanna celebrate and live my life
Saying ay-oh, baby let's go.
Cause we gon rock this club
We gon' go all night
We gon' light it up
Like it's dynamite.
Cause I told you once
Now I told you twice
We gon light it up
Like it's dynamite.

ive been singing this song randomly for th past 3 to 4 days..and its addictive..!!hee..gonna cntinue singing it now..:)

i miss my bby alot..!!hugging stitch tightly now..!!bby..u tkmo tkde mood la..nant tk cute la..must smile ok..i miss you soo much..!!smile ok syg..:)

i love you..!!

2010-08-06T19:51:00.002+08:00

today we celebrated singapore's 45th bday at sch.. had th parade..omg super duper nervous..fancy drills..super duper nervous too.. make mistakes.. bt.. what to do.. have to do th fancy drill.. and than..celebration..watch th performance..love kak rawr's grp dance..!! woo..!! they rock..!! before that.. went to np rm.. slack.. meet bby at staircase :) .. bby gave stitch for our 1st mthsary..!! soo cute..!! i love it..!! im soo gonna sleep with stitch every night..!! bby say ' klaw u rindu i.. u tkmo pelok bantal tau.. u pelok stitch ni '..i was like..'ok2 i hug stitch klaw i rindu u..' *smiling widely at him* hee.. bby ure soo cute..!! den we must go our separate ways.. aww~~..soo sad..:( after th celebration was over.. me n bestie syak waited for feeza raifana n fie.. punye la lambat..!! ckp je kat toilet.. mcm uat toilet la korg ni.. anw.. waited for them for abt.. 20 mins..?? den.. off we go out of sch.. syak feeza rai fie rab ain n me took 307.. i alight 1st.. den went home took a rest before going out..to library.. with bby.. :)

at th library met bby.. he was in th talking rm sitting.. while waiting for me he played a game.. and guess what game he played.. POKEMON.. cute kan die..?? he was soo engrossed with that game.. look soo cute..!! sat down.. he was in front of me.. i took out chemistry hmwk and do it.. bby was still playing his pokemon game.. den i asked him wat is Al F.. which was Aluminium Flouride.. guess what he said..' ouh ni Aluminium Foil'.. with his face soo confident.. i laughed when i heard him sae that.. he was soo funny.. den i cntinued doing my chem.. after that read social studies txbk.. he lie down on my shoulder.. mcm budak kecik tau die.. hee.. cute~..!! after that at abt 5.45pm went off.. den he sent me home.. we went to 7 11.. he bought 2 mashed potato n a slurpee.. den.. we walked.. n walked.. he said something.. skali suare die terkehel.. haha..!! i cn see that die mcm paisey gitu.. haha.. den i let him drink water.. kecian bby.. den we went to donoe which block.. we sat and had our mashed potato.. he suap me n i suap him.. hee~~.. he fed me th slurpee.. aww~~.. sweet kan bby..??!! den he ask my permission.. ' bie..i nk hug u bole..i nk isap rokok uh..nanti tk bole hug lagi..*hugging* u tunggu sini tau..tkmo pegi mane2..i carik lighter..i nk isap rokok..i tk bole tahan uh..' i was like ok2.. he went i dont know where and came back smoking.. he sat very far away frm me.. i took a photo of hym..:) after he smoke.. he sat beside me.. he had that smoke smell.. bt i ignore it.. he drink slurpee to get rid of th smell.. i think.. den after that i took a picture of us.. hee~~.. den we went home.. we hugged.. he kiss me i kiss hym.. ^^.. i love my bby alot..!! ^^.. am soo gonna miss him for th nx 4 daes.. :( ok gtg.. choaz peepos..

*to th iritating banana guy.. PLS STOP CALLING ME..!! URE SOO FREAKING IRITATING..!! COMPLAIN KAT POLICE BARU TAU.. BARU PADAN MUKE KAU.. IRITATING BTOL LA..!!MASOK KAN DLM TONG SAMPAH BARU TAU..*

happy or angry..??

2010-08-04T17:18:00.003+08:00

you broke your promise again..you told me that you would stop all this and you wanted to chnge..you even promised me that..bt..you break your promise over and over again..you told me that you would try to stop and chnge for gd..i know you're trying your best..to control your emotions..bt you cnt..im trying to help you chnge..im trying my best too..and see what has happened now..you're being suspended..for 2 days..and tmr is our monthsary..and we wont be going to school together..pls la syg..dont break th promise that you've promised me again ok..

you said that you will trust me again..after that incident..bt..why are you replying th msg that my friend send to me..?a girl msg you..i dont know who she was..bt i didnt replied her..i even told you that that girl msged you..look..he is my friend..he said that he liked me bt i only treat him as a friend..its like..only one guy that like me..and you're fired up..i know how you felt like at that time..i was in that situation..recently..its nt that i want to rake up th past..bt..you have 3 girls msging you..i only have one..and th girls say sweet stuffs to you..my friend only say that he liked me..nothing more..ok la..i dont want to fight with you again..i want us to be what we used to be last time ok..
i really love you..and i miss you so much..i miss th old us..cn we like that again..??

♥ tmr is our 1st mthsarie..!!i just want to say thk you for being there when i need you..you alwaes cheer me up when im down..your msgs makes me smile..im alwaes waiting for your msg..eventhough you reply me like...malas like that..bt im still happy..i promise i wont repeat th mistake that i made and i wont hurt you again ok..happy one mthsary cinta..!!i ♥ you alot2 alot tau..!!muaks..!! ♥

2010-08-01T10:20:00.002+08:00

im sorry

They say it takes time
to get over serious relationships
But I’ve been waiting patiently (patiently)
i'm still stuck on you (stuck on you)
I still picture your face smiling at me
I’ve made a big mistake (big mistake)
And now I’ve got to face
the consequences of my actions (my actions)
But until your back here in my arms
I’ll never have the satisfaction (satisfaction)

I know you know that I’m sorry (sorry)
And I never meant to hurt you
Is there anything that I can do?
To make it up to you
I’d do anything (baby)
Cause I’m sorry (sorry)
I never meant to make you cry
I don’t want to say goodbye
I’m sorry
I’m sorry that I lied

Every day that passes
I’m missing you more and more
I still remember the first time
I said I knewI knew this was heaven sent (heaven sent)
I was destined (destined)
To be, me with you
And now I’ve messed it up (messed it up)
I pray to god above you, you will forgive me
Just take me in your arms
And hold me all night long (all night long)
And tell me you’ll never leave me... (leave me) (You’ll never leave me baby)
I know you know (you know)
that I’m sorry (sorry)
And I never meant to hurt you
Is there anything that I can do?
To make it up to you (to make it up to you)
I’d do anything (baby)
Cause I’m sorry (sorry)
I never meant to make you cry
I don’t want to say goodbye
I’m sorry
I’m sorry that I lied

I believe that everything happens for a reason
I know everybody makes mistakes
And everybody regrets sometimes
I won’t let this ruin everything that we had
I don’t want you to forget how much I love you baby (baby)
how much I miss you baby (baby)
You get me missing you baby (and i'll be missing you baby)
You mean everything to me

I know you know that
I’m sorry (sorry)
And I never meant to hurt you
Is there anything that I can do?
To make it up to you (to make it up to you)
I’d do anything baby (anything baby)
Cause I’m sorry (sorry)
I never meant to make you cry
I don’t want to say goodbye
I’m sorry (sorry)
I’m sorry that I lied

i ♥ you
im sorry

2010-08-01T10:05:00.002+08:00

boo im soo sorry..i should have trusted you..i should have trust all your words..i was afraid to lose you..i love you soo much..i was afraid that you would go to them..i was jealous..4 gerls was texting you at th same time..they say that they miss you and love you..i was soo jealous..one of th gerls' even said that you should break up with me..i was soo scared that you would do that to me..thats why i reacted that way..i said those hurtful words to you..when you were doing th ryte thing..i was soo dumb to have mis-judge you..at least you told me..i was th cause of it..i was too carried away by my feelngs..im sorry..i never meant to hurt you..i hope that you would forgive me..i just want you to know that i love you soo much and i miss you..:'(

2010-07-27T18:27:00.003+08:00

This song is for you..

Saying "I love you"

Is not the words I want to hear from you

It's not that I want you

Not to say,

but if you only knew how easy

It would be to show mehow you feel

More than words

Is all you have to do to make it real

Then you wouldn't have to say

that you love me

'Cause I'd already know

What would you do

if my heart was torn in two

More than words to show you feel

That your love for me is real

What would you say

if I took those words away

Then you couldn't make things new

Just by saying "I love you"

More than words

Now but I've tried to talk to you

And make you understand

All you have to do is close your eyes

And just reach out your hands

And touch me

Hold me close, don't ever let me go

More than words

Is all I ever needed you to show

Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me

'Cause I'd already know

What would you do if my heart was torn in two

More than words to show you feel

That your love for me is real

What would you say if

I took those words away

When you couldn't make things new

Just by saying "I love you"

More than words

its you..!!

2010-07-27T17:53:00.002+08:00

boo..!!you're soo sweet..!!what you write at your blog makes me smile..:) i love it when you smile.. you're soo cute..!! and your laughter is cute too.. and when you hug me.. you hug me real tight..!! i cannot breathe tau.. you're soo bad.. bt i still adore you.. :) and you have wet lip.. hee.. XD.. and when you merajok.. very cute tau..!! dgn your muke yg cute sesgt tu..!! ee..!! geram tau..!! mcm nk pinch your cheeks gitu..!! den nk bawak u balek..:) hee.. ok la.. quickly text me tau boo.. miss you already..:(..

♥love you..!!muaks..!!♥

this is what i want to say to you...

2010-07-19T18:22:00.006+08:00

see those pictures above there..?? thats what i want to say to you..:) you're such a sweet guy.. i like you.. i adore you.. i love you..:) everytime i receive your msgs.. they make me smile.. because your msgs are so cute..!! sometimes just by reading your msgs.. i feel like you're with me.. and i feel like hugging you tightly..!! everytime i see you.. i will smile to myself.. sometimes you dont see me looking at you bt.. i dont care.. th important thing is that.. i saw you.. and just by seeing you makes my day.. i still remember seeing you smile at me for th first time.. i was so happy that you smiled at me back.. i told my friends that you smiled at me and they would be like..'ok2.. die senyom kat kau.. suke nye kau..' bt i dont care what they say..:) you make me smile everyday.. until nw whenever we meet.. my stomach would be full of butterlies.. flying here and there.. i love to see you smile.. and see your dimples.. hee..:) i just want to say that i feel that you're always there for me when i need somebody to talk to.. thk u for being there for me when im down.. thk u so much banana..!!

*pls stop calling me sotong and tortoise ok..im not a sotong and tortoise.. i know im slow and blur.. bt im not those things.. and if you cntinue calling me that.. i call you banana and kentang..:)*

awak manis..!!

2010-07-01T18:51:00.002+08:00

thk u for alwaes being there for me when i need you..you always make me smile when i read your msgs..you always cheer me up with th way you type your msgs..your a sweet guy..i like you..when we otp..you like th shy2 type..your voice is cute.. :) you even msg me just to say that one sentence when we're otp..when i asked you why you did that..you said that you were shy..aww..~~ cute nye..!! :) feel like pinching your cheeks..!!!i like th way you talk also..im sorry i cant give you th answer to your question now..bt i will let you know once ive decided..i like th name you call me..its cute..thk u..^^..ok gtg..cnt wait for your msg later..:) bbye..!!

signing off
1919hrs
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i love my atok..^.^

2010-06-28T16:36:00.004+08:00

see th picture above..?thats my atok..:) arent we sweet..!!??like real couple gitu..:p..i love my atok very much..unfortunately he's sick..:( my aunty says that he have lung cancer..:( kecian kan my atok..:( i really2 love him to th bottom of my heart..he's cute you know..especially when he smile..like baby like that..coz he has no teeth..hehe..:) bt wtv it is..he's my atok..and he's th best atok i could ever have..I LOVE U ATOK..!!*bighugs..!!*

signing off

1649hrs
280610